who he is...not just what he does.......

k...i had the most amazing revelation and experience over Christmas....sadly just now getting to sharing, but hey, better late than never eh?

so our family was fighting a "BUG" for the the third Christmas in a row....what is up with that??????

one sleepless night, i was confessing, as i had been doing for days, healing over my son, who was at the moment, suffering quite a bit....and it HIT ME.....

even if you've never had the experience of being in a dysfunctional relationship with a member of the opposite sex, you've at least had a friend who experienced one, or at the VERY LEAST seen a episode of "jerry springer" in passing, LOL!

we've all seen this though....they ask the person WHY they "love" the other person and their answer goes something like this, "because they treat me good or do things for me." i've experienced this and it stinks!!! i WANT to be loved for who i am as a person, not for what i can do for the other person...

so here i am 'thanking GOD' all night for healing but it's just not getting there fast enough and my little one is suffering so that i'm starting to loose a little faith....

it was then i realized that GOD is no different than us in that aspect...he too wants to be loved and/or praised for who HE IS and not just what he does for us...the moment i started PRAISING HIM, things immediately started to turn around for us....PRAISE HIM, PRAISE HIM!

does anyone remember.......

does anyone remember their first or second grade spelling tests?????

well...i kinda do, but i don't remember words like these being on it......

yeah, i know....my son loves his dvd's probably a little too much, but it goes with the territory of autism.

when we talk about the things he writes, sometimes i get the feeling it's either not believable to some or hard to wrap your head completely around. so here's his latest example above.....

in case you can't capture it all, it says......

"walt disney pictures presents, a pixar animation studios film, monster (should be monsters) inc, coming soon to disney dvd, summer 2008."

this was with no prompting, help or even suggestion, just off the top of his adorable little head...

how you like those apples?

you can't please everyone....so ya?

asher's new "converse" shoes

his uncle sent him from florida

for Christmas! how cute are they...

you can't please everyone so what do you do????

a friend and i were recently having this conversation. she expressed how much was expected of her that day but all she wanted to do was CHILL....

today that same friend called me...she noticed right away i was busy but proceeded to talk another 15 minutes and seemed offended when i said i had to go.....

it occured to me that i'd done essentially the right thing but still put myself somewhere in there....and more importantly God too! she needed to "vent" about some offenses she'd incurred. i told her that maybe God wasn't able to give her what her heart desired in that situation because she was in offense over not receiving it already. i really needed to eat at that point (diabetic if you don't know and VERY cranky when i need to be fed, lol!). but i gave her some time anyway. she didn't have much interest at that point in what was going on with me so i just listened. but then i had to go.

i couldn't PLEASE her completely, so i had to please myself...or feed as the case was. my point is....

DO YOUR BEST, AVOID GOSSIP, GIVE A LITTLE MORE THAN YOU THINK YOU CAN ORIGINALLY AND THEN MOVE ON WITH THE PEACE OF KNOWING YOU DID YOUR BEST...even if it didn't meet someone else's expectations.....blessings...

tag...i'm it too???

so how this works, according to what crystal did.....

tabitha @ fresh mommy (tabithablue.blogspot.com) tagged me so i'm supposed to post a snippet from the closest book to me. since i'm sitting at the computer desk, that happens to be "Jenny Craig's Little Survival Guide." not a bad little book to have around by the way....chuck full of great tips if you're planning to start dieting, AS AM I, @ the first of the year (i'm feeling a little de javu here......LOL).

here's a good one......
Don't equate willpower with deprivation. Instead think of willpower as a positive thing--as in "by managing my weight, I will live a healthier lifestyle...and I will have more energy for family activities."

how's that???

small is in the mind of the beholder....

small accomplishments happen every day for children and we as parents get the

privledge of observing them....but for a parent of a special needs child, there's

NO SUCH THING as a SMALL accomplishment!!!!

hence these photos....see a little man decorating his Christmas tree, but

independently stops to say "CHEESE", who wasn't even speaking six short months

ago! see a little boy in a santa hat patiently posing for photos who wouldn't look

into a camera for years and didn't like having his picture taken...or a little boy who's

favorite "rudolph the red-nosed reindeer" train passes by unblocked by fences

once put up in front of them because he now has the patience and maturity to just

sit and watch it without breaking it!

yes people, small does not begin to describe these every day occurances, call

them miracles if you would because they are! the blessed Christmas season has

begun........

suck it up before you lose the choice...

i've been waiting to write this until the mood hit me....i decided on the eve of GIVING THANKS that it did.....

i lost a member of my family last week. for what would have "normally" been a traumatic experience, given their relationship to me and it's implied closeness, it was actually rather ambivilent. the reason why, so sadly, was i had only seen this person once in over thirty years. they removed themselves from my life when i was still a child, for no apparent reason to me and without explanation. many years of hurt and wonder followed.....

a few years back, GOD himself interveined and reconnected me to this person through a freakish, but clearly annointed circumstance. i was happy to say that with God in me i just said, "no hard feelings, let's just be thankful he reconnected us again and move on from here." sadly once again, through reasons of pride and unacceptance, they once again rejected me, and this time my son as well. fortunately, with God in me again, i just prayed for this person and went on with my life. there was nothing more i could do......

i have other people in my life as we speak that are refusing to speak with/break bread with other members of my family for the most insignifigant reasons. and i find myself looking at them and thinking, "are you gonna wait til their funeral to see them again?" but this is in reality the dilemma they face if they simply refuse God's grace in themselves and give that back to those people.

we hear it ALL THE TIME but that's because it's TRUE! life is short and on our death beds these silly little walls between us and others won't amount to a hill of beans....but our regreat for lost opportunities may be the size of a mountain!!!

i urge you tomorrow to take a moment to REALLY, REALLY, REALLY look for the good in each and every person you spend time with and more importantly, RELEASE any muck that stands between you and just giving them a hug!

HAPPY THANKSGIVING EVERYONE AND GOD BLESS YOU!

people respect your convictions....

just a simple observation today....

back to government class again, lol. seems this class has at the very least evoked a lot of thought process with me...

today we were assigned two group projects. the first was to read a newspaper article on a bill passing some time back. then read several articles to be labeled with our notes from the past week. the problem was the first assignment...

this was an article on "partial-birth" abortion and NOT one i would normally care to read. i know, i know...you can't just pretend things don't exist and hide your head, but i tend to get very emotional and sad when i'm innendated with too much yuk! part way through the article i got nauseous reading the details of the "how." so i made the decision to opt out of the assignment and loose a few points. i did do the second one in case you're wondering.

to my surprise, everyone, including the teacher himself, was not only respectful, but kind and respectful. goes to show, you can still stand up for what you believe in and have those that might disagree still RESPECT you for doing it. amen!