suck it up before you lose the choice...

i've been waiting to write this until the mood hit me....i decided on the eve of GIVING THANKS that it did.....

i lost a member of my family last week. for what would have "normally" been a traumatic experience, given their relationship to me and it's implied closeness, it was actually rather ambivilent. the reason why, so sadly, was i had only seen this person once in over thirty years. they removed themselves from my life when i was still a child, for no apparent reason to me and without explanation. many years of hurt and wonder followed.....

a few years back, GOD himself interveined and reconnected me to this person through a freakish, but clearly annointed circumstance. i was happy to say that with God in me i just said, "no hard feelings, let's just be thankful he reconnected us again and move on from here." sadly once again, through reasons of pride and unacceptance, they once again rejected me, and this time my son as well. fortunately, with God in me again, i just prayed for this person and went on with my life. there was nothing more i could do......

i have other people in my life as we speak that are refusing to speak with/break bread with other members of my family for the most insignifigant reasons. and i find myself looking at them and thinking, "are you gonna wait til their funeral to see them again?" but this is in reality the dilemma they face if they simply refuse God's grace in themselves and give that back to those people.

we hear it ALL THE TIME but that's because it's TRUE! life is short and on our death beds these silly little walls between us and others won't amount to a hill of beans....but our regreat for lost opportunities may be the size of a mountain!!!

i urge you tomorrow to take a moment to REALLY, REALLY, REALLY look for the good in each and every person you spend time with and more importantly, RELEASE any muck that stands between you and just giving them a hug!

HAPPY THANKSGIVING EVERYONE AND GOD BLESS YOU!